I am finally back in our farmhouse. It is really beautiful here. Quiet,calm,relaxing,warm and it the country, just where I want to be. When I brought jax in he made kind of strange with the house, but as soon as I opened his toy box and he started to recognize his toys he got so excited! Toys were eve where as he laughed, grinned and looked at them. I can't believe how much he as changed, he has a new, more matured way of looking at the toys. So inquisitive and very indepeNdent. He plays so well by himself, and can play very well bynhimself. I had an incredible imagination, which was one thing I really wanted to pass down to my children,by keeping toys very simple, and lots ofntimefor discovery and exploration. I know we will have great times building forts and Lego.
I'm in a tough place now, lots going on, debating selling or renting our house on Chotem, trying to finish my thesis so i can complete my masters, struggling on being a good wife to a man that is struggling with depression, and trying to enjoy the last days of my mat leave. I am struggling, like every new mom with the idea of returning to work. No more sweatpants everyday, or not caring what you look like. No more breakfast or wake p calls from my son, he is my alarm clock. Now with the travel to saskatoon, I will likely be gone before he wakes. How can someone watch my son as well asi did, i worked so hard to teach him to eat and sleep, and now i have to accept the fact that he may learnnew life lessons from someone else.
Dont get me wrong, there are days that I feel very anxious to get back into the workforce, but then he will do something new, and I realize this small moments will come less as I am consumed by a day of pleasing other parents children. Imlove my job, but sometimes the parents can be very difficult.
Movie time, I love this with my husband!
While away my mom got us beautiful curtains for the front window....perfect!
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